update
human relationships are messy. my uncle didn't return the call, someone i regarded as if my own father and a very kind hearted girl i met at the apartment had just removed me from her instagram. i am hurt. i am thinking what i did wrong. also the mum group has been bugging me a bit since i dont get any response to any of the advice i share which i thought could help someone. i have to tell myself that adult relationsihps are complex. very. also are messy. not perfect. people are far more isolated. everyone has close circles. no one trusts each other. i think it's me that's super open and always tmi they say too much information = tmi. human relationships are messy. i tried with teh girl at the apartment. i am wondering if i told anything wrong. i don't know. but going after her would be awkward. i don't know what to do. i wanted to be there for her but she was not very approachable or close. she was kind. i think this is the lesson. just because people are kind ...