Update

I get very lonely when Steve leaves town. On a positive note, that's a time for me to reconnect with myself, what I like , my interests and my time. I am thinking of going to the salon on Sunday but with the baby it's going to be a bit hard. They wash the hair and I am picuturing myself wearing the baby and him crying. :( I can't I finally got the baby to sleep today like an hour ago and feeling so relieved. I hope he sleeps for the rest of the night. I have to feed him though. I also need to pump. Not sure how I can pump when he will start crying as soon as he wakes up agaiin. What he needs now is attention. He is growing up fast. He is not going to sleep after eating and having the diaper changed. It's a lot more. I love Steve. He is a very sensitive guy and a good man. Of course it's not easy wiht him at times and he has a quick temper, easily gets irritated etc. but he is honest for the most part and I like him. He never wants to hurt people. He is a good man. I am glad I chose him over all these Sri Lankan men like Chamly Nilkamal etc. They are very materialistic and were not good people. Gihan was good but he constantly tried ot change me which was tough. pToday I am also not feeling that great. I hhave catch a cold. I also got approved for a $900k housing loan. I am so happy. It's a mortgage really which means I don't have to rent next year and we can own.