Update

I have therapy tomorrow. Can't wait. I have been thinking about brother a lot too. I still can't imagine what happened to him. like how? how can that happen to anyone? especailly to my brother who was set up for success by my parents? I mean not entirely, he was a target of parental neglect, especially by my father. During those 5 years, we were separated from my mum, we were subject to horrendous abuse by servants and my father both. Father's intentions were love but the servants were evil. I resorted to an isolated life. We hardly spoke about what we were facing at home. I slightly remember servants hiding our pencils so that we can't go to class to learn. Also them stealing, hitting, punishing and so on. Why would someone do that? I like blogging because America is a very private place. I feel embarrassed of outpouring these experiences to a mum group in a public chat. I don't want to do that again. Tht'S WHY most people stay quiet in that chat and suffer in silenece. Culture in the U.S is such that people hardly speak up on their personal struggles. I have to adapt beacause showing these also makes me be attacked. Anyway Currently my focus should be to pass cissp AND GET a good job. Then travel to sri lanka, help aiya. I don't even know what's going on with my visa stuff. So much to do in sri lanka as well. I am also starting to get sick working with Tehania. Like she is a mess, also she hardly appreciates the salary I am payign for her. She has to understand that no one is going to offer her that because she has a kid and she is not willing to travel or do anything else. Also it's so hard working with her. She is bipolar or something like her ex boyfriend told me. She is all over the place. Anyway it's hard to find proper talent in sri lanka, definitely hard to find trustworthy people. Men always try to play you out. I took a day off today. I was supposed to sit for the exam but I didn't because I have not done any mock exams lately. Wanted to have some sort of confidence before sitting for the exam.